When Now Seems Like Forever

Living with depression can be quite challenging at times. I need to keep reminding myself that things are not as bad as my mind would have me believe. It is no wonder I abused drugs and alcohol for so many years. To naturally desire escape and peace from these feeling without knowing any positive ways to cope with them either leads to madness or self-medication. I know there are many others out there living with this problem and I am sure some of them are self-medicating. We do not hear enough about these types of problems in my opinion. Also, people who have not suffered from depression probably have a hard time understanding it. When I am depressed, I feel quite hopeless and my thoughts become obsessive. I continually am thinking about the things that are wrong in my life which just deepens the gloomy feelings. But I have learned to remember all the blessing I have, especially at times like this. I also must realize that my mind can be my worst enemy. Things are almost never as bad as I think they are. I have heard someone say, "the worst things in my life never happened", or something like that. I am grateful to have found help from my doctor and most of all to the most famous 12 step program. It is ongoing therapy which I will need for the rest of my life. For whatever the reason, my mind sometimes is just not 'right', but I am now able to realize this. Thank God for that. I wish you all peace and serenity!